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Just before the turn of the new millennium, my husband and I were sitting in our living room, our sleeping baby in my arms. Somehow we got on the subject of teenage hijinks and the state forest behind our house. My husband and I had both grown up in places with convenient nooks and crannies for teens to get up to the usual teen stuff away from the prying eyes of adults.

We gazed out the back window at the trees. When we were young in the 70s and 80s, it was very typical for teens to sneak out into the woods to smoke some weed (we called it pot!). Of course there was quite a stigma about more hardcore drugs, but there was always this sense that cannabis was no big deal.

But life in the 90s was different. The topic of our conversation was “What will we tell our kid about drugs?” And the reason for our conversation was the so-called War on Drugs, which had imprisoned a large number of young people. At that point, we were regularly reading about young adults losing their freedom over the sorts of mistakes cops used to shrug about.

What will we tell him? we asked each other. Little did we know that we’d face a much harder question 23 years later.

This isn’t 1978

In so many ways, the lives are teens are fundamentally different now. And that means that parenting is fundamentally different. The War on Drugs gave my husband and me pause in 1999, but we had no idea that once our children were young adults, a whole new danger would arise.

I’ve spent the last few weeks reporting on the fentanyl crisis in my county. One thing I learned is that most of us have it all wrong. Most people would probably not get 100% on this important quiz:

True or false:

• Fentanyl overdoses mainly happen to homeless drug addicts
• Fentanyl overdoses happen to people who knew they were taking a dangerous substance
• Opioid overdoses are someone else’s problem

All of those statements are false, it turns out. The fentanyl crisis is not an overdose crisis. It’s a murder crisis.

Murder isn’t too strong a word

The word was used by a grieving mom I interviewed, and at first it gave me pause. She told me that her son’s death would be labeled an overdose, but it wasn’t an overdose since he didn’t mean to take fentanyl at all. He thought he was taking half a Xanax he’d bought from a street dealer. He’d been suffering from anxiety, and the pandemic hadn’t helped. He’d run through his health insurance’s therapy allowance, so now he was self-medicating, as so many do.

He took half a Xanax, went to sleep, and never woke up.

You might argue that this was an unintentional poisoning, but there is clear intent and clear understanding of the consequences on the part of the people who are manufacturing, distributing, and selling these drugs. Manufacturers are adding fentanyl because it’s cheap and because it creates a quick addiction—thus a guaranteed profit. The deaths aren’t affecting their bottom line, so they’re ignoring them, spiking even “prescription” drugs like Xanax with enough fentanyl to kill someone.

So if you think it’s just opiate addicts who are dying, think again. A kid who thinks they’re buying a relatively safe “party drug” can end up addicted or dead from a drug they didn’t even know they were taking.

How that conversation would go now

Here’s where I imagine myself sitting with that baby in my arms now rather than at the end of a very different millennium. Then, we were concerned about the government harming our child who had just been acting as teens have throughout human history. Now, the fear is of a much deeper, much more permanent harm perpetrated by people we can’t vote out of office.

I really don’t know what we’d say.

My heart goes out to parents who have young teens now. These years when our kids are forming their sense of self are so fraught with danger even when someone isn’t willfully putting them in harm’s way.

Let kids know the risk

Young people are dying now. Sadly, the mainstream media seems to be ignoring it, or maybe families are embarrassed and don’t want to admit why their child died.

I wish more families of victims would speak out and educate other parents about what’s happening. I hope that parents are listening and not just falling back on stereotypes—”That would never happen to our kid.”

My article contains tips for talking to your child about drug use, as well as information about how and when to use Narcan/naloxone.

Resources:

• Read my article in Growing Up in Santa Cruz.
• Song for Charlie is a family-run nonprofit charity dedicated to raising awareness about ‘fentapills’ — fake pills made of fentanyl. The website offers parent educational materials.
• Santa Cruz ​County Health Department’s list of tips for considering whether an adolescent has a problem with alcohol or other drugs.
• Community Prevention Partners addresses ​​youth and community safety through sustainable alcohol and drug prevention efforts.
• SafeRxSanta Cruz County offers support for prevention, increased treatment access, and evidence-based harm reduction practices, to improve community well-being and save lives. 
• This poster has lots of good information about different pills that have been found spiked with fentanyl and how to recognize the signs of an overdose.

• If you are in California, you can get Narcan from any pharmacy. The pharmacist can write you a prescription, and you don’t have to have a reason. Health officials recommend that everyone have some at home—if not for your own family, possibly for someone who visits your home. You can also get it free from most public and nonprofit addiction services.
• On my blog: Parenting and Drugs: This isn’t 1978

Podcasts:

• Listen to my full interview with Rita Hewitt of SafeRX Santa Cruz, in which we focus on fentanyl and its effects on youth.
• Listen to my interview on KSQD with Rita, Dr. Jen Hastings, and Dr. Casey Grover about drug use, addiction, and the best ways to combat them in our community.

Last summer, a group of California residents involved in various ways in homeschooling noticed with alarm that state legislators were planning to tinker with a little-noticed part of the education code called Independent Study (IS).

Little-noticed before the pandemic, that is.

Once we’d gone through the big pause and schools started to reopen, administrators noticed something alarming: some families liked home learning. They realized how little time in school was spent on actual study, how much more time they had to pursue their passions, and in many cases, how much better the child’s physical and mental health was.

In other words, these families found out that they were actually homeschoolers.

The state found this distressing, however, and was moving to curtail it. They tightened the rules concerning IS, requiring homeschool programs to have “daily instruction,” for example. They also tightened the already stranglingly tight rules for online charter schools.

What they didn’t know (but should have, since we kicked up as big a fuss as we could) was that IS is used not just by families trying to keep their kids from going back to a physical school during Covid. IS is used to serve the needs of a diverse set of students, from kids learning many grades ahead to kids with severe physical and mental illness.

And here we are five months later, with another round of changes to ed law on the horizon. And again, here we homeschoolers are, kickin’ up as big a fuss as we can.

Following you can read my letter regarding how the unintended consequences of their ed law changes have affected my particular profession. But I can assure you, this tale is just a small part of the larger picture. These “small changes” they made have wreaked havoc with home educators, and are pushing homeschoolers out of the public school system.

As I explain in my letter, this abandoning of the system is to no one’s benefit. I deeply believe in public schooling. But I also deeply believe in serving the needs of kids on the margins. And the public schools are making this harder and harder to do.

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Dear Legislator,

I am writing because I think it is extremely important for legislators to be aware of the unintended consequences of changes they make to law, in this case, education law. The experiences I will detail below concern the changes to Independent Study (IS) that were enacted in 2021 under AB 130 and 167. I feel this is very important for you to read through before the vote on further changes to the ed code next week.

In August 2021, when these changes were being debated, a group of Santa Cruz-based public homeschooling/IS educators met with State Senator John Laird to discuss their concerns over the proposals. Though I was kept from attending by one of our famous Santa Cruz traffic snarls, my colleagues did a great job of explaining to Sen. Laird how public school-enrolled homeschoolers use Independent Study to serve the needs of vulnerable students. 

It is now five months later, and as predicted by those of us who met with Sen. Laird, these changes have had a devastating effect on our families and teachers. I will let our local public homeschool program advocates speak for themselves; this letter concerns the online private school I teach for, Athena’s Advanced Academy.

First, a short introduction: Athena’s attracts a variety of students, both in school and homeschooled. Our core population is gifted children who are homeschooling, many of them through public charters using IS. These families choose homeschooling for a variety of reasons: 

• because their local districts can’t suit the student’s needs for advanced coursework
• because our “square peg” students have been bullied and harassed (both by fellow students and by school staff)
• because our population overlaps significantly with at-risk students who are LGBTQ+, have mental health issues, or have severe physical health problems that keep them from attending physical school.

Our courses take place fully online. We do not use video, and students are asked not to divulge their full names, ages, or other significant details. They are never physically in a room with the teacher or other students. All of our sessions are recorded. Athena’s conducts thorough background checks on all instructors. As you can see, the risk of attending courses at Athena’s is practically nonexistent.

Before I go into the details, here are just a few results of the changes you enacted in August:

• The owner of our school, Dr. Kirsten Stein, is a single mom who homeschooled her own children (one of whom graduated from UC at the age of 19!) through the California charter school system. She has spent “countless hours” trying to accommodate the different demands from each of the charter schools we work with, all because of the recent changes. 
• The teachers who live in California (a minority of our educators) spent $85-$195 per teacher to get Livescanned. In other words, we paid as much money as a student pays us for a class in order to have that student in our class!
• The teachers who live in other states have had to drive hours, make multiple phone calls, and research conflicting advice in order to get fingerprinted and get the prints transferred into California’s system. One teacher is out over $500 so far and her prints have not yet showed up in the system.
• One of the two teachers who live outside of the United States saw the writing on the wall and got into the system when she was in the US at the end of the summer. She was lucky. The other one, who lives in Norway, has spent hours of research, to no avail. She will lose over half of her students because they are enrolled in charter schools and aren’t allowed to be in a virtual classroom with a teacher who has not been Livescanned.

Just from those four bullet points, you can see how disruptive the law has been to our school. You could certainly stop reading here and be fully aware that the changes you made were harmful to a very vulnerable population, but I hope that you will read on so that you can fully understand our situation.

When this saga started, Dr. Stein was faced with a number of issues stemming from the law’s requirement that our instructors be fingerprinted.

• The cost of initiating individual educator fingerprinting for each of the 15+ charter schools would have been prohibitive, so that was not on the table.
• After many hours of research, Dr. Stein decided that Athena’s would obtain the credentials needed to fingerprint our teachers and convey the results to the charter schools, which required attaining an Originating Agency Identification (ORI) number for Athena’s.
• After five months of continuous effort, dealing with the DOJ and the uniqueness of Athena’s situation, the ORI was obtained.

At that point, each individual instructor’s arduous task started. Please note that instructors make between $100 and $200 per student per course, and so far only one of us has kept our expenses under $100! Many of us teach part-time while homeschooling our own children, so clearly, the cost is prohibitive to us. But the cost has been dwarfed by the time trying to figure out the US’s labyrinthine system of education, privacy, and interstate communication. It’s truly been a disaster!

The intent of the law, I assume, was to better and more safely educate our students. Our students are not safer because of this law. They will not be better educated. Their parents will not feel more comfortable with their choice of Athena’s as an educational provider. This law has done nothing but force us into a Kafkaesque tragicomedy which keeps us from doing what we love: educating our unusual, smart, inquisitive, creative, and vulnerable students in our shared passions.

Here is a sampling of students who are in my courses:

• A child with such debilitating illness that she can’t attend physical school
• A lesbian girl so harassed at her public school that she attempted suicide last year
• A transgender teen who loves the freedom of attending Athena’s as the person she is—while at home her parents won’t let her talk about “that girl nonsense” 
• Multiple young teens who are attending college and see Athena’s as a safe place to interact with students their own age
• A twelve-year-old who writes full-length novels and is seeking publication
• Brilliant children with learning disabilities better accommodated at home than a remedial classroom

Our students deserve a school like Athena’s. Independent Study allows them to maintain their status as public school students while also pursuing an education that suits their needs. Like Dr. Stein, both of my children were public school students the entire time they homeschooled. One of them just graduated with honors from UC. We are not the fringe-dwelling crackpots portrayed in the press.

From our point of view, the crux of this situation is that lawmakers view homeschool educators with suspicion. Public homeschool programs that use Independent Study, a lifeline for our families, are seen as bilking the government out of money needed to educate children in mainstream schools. There is no acknowledgement that our public schools have become unable to educate a significant portion of the population due to narrowing of the curriculum, draconian attendance rules, and lack of accountability when a child is harassed or bullied.

Athena’s is a wonderful place. Our students love the community and the sense of belonging that they get in a place where they aren’t seen as different and where their academic needs are met. Many of our families scrape together the money they need to pay for our classes, but the lucky ones are able to enroll in public programs that pay their tuition.

I realize that the legislators making these changes thought they were solving problems. I also know, however, that they were not unaware of the vulnerable children whose education they were going to upend in making these changes. My two colleagues who met with Sen. Laird made sure that he understood the consequences and I sent him a letter detailing my separate concerns after the meeting. 

I urge you to consider that in order to make good laws that help our state’s children become educated citizens, you have to consider all of our children. Yes, the majority of our children do just fine in mainstream schools, but our vulnerable children do not. Many need Independent Study to serve their needs. Our society needs them not to fall through the cracks, and it is in the State’s best interests to keep them in the public school system.

My own children are now grown, but if they were homeschoolers now, we would have left the system. And we wouldn’t be alone. The enrollment numbers speak loud and clear: decisions like the ones you made last August are having terrible consequences for our students. The students you are losing from the system now are probably not coming back, and that is a sorrow that all of us at Athena’s feel acutely.

Thank you for sticking with me through this letter. I would welcome any questions you have. You may also contact Dr. Stein to get her perspective.

Sincerely,

Susana (Suki) Wessling

Educator, Athena’s Advanced Academy

We were all grinning under our masks as the band started to play. It was November, our first jam since the pandemic, and jazz was back.

I am on the board of the Jazz Society of Santa Cruz County, an organization of 72 paying members and 700-some interested event attendees. We had weathered the pandemic with pathetic attempts to jam over Zoom and informal gatherings outdoors at members’ houses.

The decision to have a live jam wasn’t made lightly. There is no better incubator for a virus than a room full of horn-blowing, singing, dancing people. And as a tiny nonprofit with a dedicated board of five amateurs, we debated what sort of risk we were able to shoulder.

When I consider the criticism of the decisions made at the county, state, and federal level and by corporations small and large, I think about the Jazz Society. If it’s so hard for us to decide what sorts of risks to take, how hard is it when your decision affects thousands or millions?

The decision looks easy, but…

Our county boasts fine weather and lots of space for outdoor music. Well over 80% of adults over 30 are vaccinated. When we announced that our event would require masks and proof of vaccination, we didn’t receive a single complaint. 

A closer look shows more nuance to the decision. Jazz is an art practiced mainly by people over 60, and we’re not the wealthiest or healthiest population. We also know each other. We are not strangers who happen to end up next to each other, like attendees at the music festivals that became superspreader events. If one of us dies, we mourn as a community. If one of us gets Covid, it usually means that a group of us have to rush to get tested.

We were prepared to start up our twice-monthly jam schedule for real in January. We had finally found a new location—at this point, none of the for-profit clubs we’d played in was able to take a charity case like us. (Jazz was voted the very least popular musical genre in the county in one local publication’s poll. Come on, folks, this is America’s classical music!)

And then Omicron

We considered the county’s hospitalization rate, the health of our house band, the reputation of our organization. We considered our nonprofit hosts, the cold weather that would keep us inside, the fact that we five were making decisions about the health of scores of others.

And we canceled.

Here’s what I take away from this

Pandemics are complicated. They are frustratingly slow-moving. They heighten our anxiety and divisions. We want to blame somebody, but there’s simply no one to blame. We’re all improvising.

I understand everyone’s frustration and anxiety—I share it. In fact, when my son’s university did a bait and switch to get students back to campus before they announced that classes were going remote, I was hopping mad. He could have stayed home and eaten good food rather than dining hall slop. Honestly, it wasn’t the decision that angered me, but the timing.

However, knowing how hard our board worked helps me appreciate the difficulty of the decision-makers’ jobs. They are doing their best, and they can’t please everyone. But when they go home at the end of a long, difficult day, they have to live with themselves. They have to know they made the most informed decision they could. And until others are willing to go out and get the education, skills, and experience that they have, they are the decision-makers we’ve got. We don’t have to agree with their decisions, but barring evidence of clear ineptitude, we’ll be a happier, more functional society if we support them so they can do their best.

Carry on!

Thankfully, our members—though disappointed—are largely behind us. We truly are doing our best in these difficult circumstances. And we promise this: Jazz is not dead. It may come dead last in a popularity poll, but we will come together again with grins under our masks. And someday we’ll remove the masks and get back to the smiles, the hugs, and the free exchange of breath that makes our music the deepest expression of our humanity.